my secret project
I am unhappy, yet I am quietly happy. The federal government is taking money out of my bank account, which they have every right to do, because I still haven't paid off all my student loans. But it throws what little balance I have achieved into a precarious state. Disaster looms. If the whole spun-sugar cage collapses under its own weight, what will I do then? Not sure. Hard to say, really. But I've got a little side project--a little book project, a self-publishing thing, personal--and when I think about it, nothing can hurt me for long. It's like I'm humming on the inside. If I had known self-publishing could make me this happy, I would have stopped looking down my nose at it years ago.